Thursday, September 29

less than 24 hours to destroy an innocent life..




Hi, Mommy.

...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few
weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I
will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me
your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.



You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.



Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It
doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I
do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.



Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.



I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.



Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want
us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?



You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?



It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do
that when you're awake, any more?



I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.



...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!



Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!



Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.



Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!





I love you, Mommy.



Every abortion is just…



One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.



If you’re against abortion, reblog.



source : fb friends


- TAMMAT-




Sunday, September 18

Baby 1 Malaysia..

To my twin cousin.. sis Azie a.k.a Arroyo..


Tahniah awok dapat baby gurl super duper cute..bertambah lagi sorang my nephew.. datx mean next raya bertambah lagi lah bilangan budak tecik yang berbaris...


the lucky one adalah baby nie lahir pada 16 September 2011 bersamaan Hari 1 Malaysia..bertuah betul..  dia bersalin kat Hospital Serdang.. tu je yang sempat pergi.. hahaha.. siap begambar gambar lagi masuk paper.. the bad thing time tangkap gambar tu my kazen pakai baju besar gedabak.. dan tak lupa baju tu terbalik.. 
:D


jom tengok the budak kecik..



pipi demok.. paha ketak ketak pulak tu.. ishhh geram..



nama pon baby tidow 24 jam.. tapi cuba time menangis.. kuat betul suaranye...






ibu nya nak letak nama Nur Auni Umairah.. tapi ayahnya pulak tengah fenin fenin.. tak kesah lah nama apa apa pon yang penting elok maknanya... moga si auni jadi seorang yang baik, solehah,bijak, dah positive thinker besar nanti ye..


peluk cium dari ibu kecik...muaahh..




-TAMMAT-



Friday, September 16

9 bulan menyepi akhirnya kau lahir ke dunia anakku..

lama kan diri ku ini menyepi.. bukan maksudku nak menipu.. tapi itu kehendak dari Nya.. meletakkan aku di dalam satu situasi yang sukar untuk aku bernafas, bergerak... aku hanya mampu meluahkan perasaan.. kata kata.. pada sesuatu masa sahaja.. maafkan aku..



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sudah sudah lah norapikah buat ayat puaka kau tuh.. sebenarnye tu saje je aku buat ayat feeling ibarat baby dalam kandungan lah kan.. tak dapat bergerak.. tak dapat bersuara.. mana ada nipu nye..



haritu kan aku pernah cerita kat sini pasal MY TWIN PREGNANT .. pagi pagi tadi lagi henpon aku dah berdering masuk mesej.. tak pe aku lemparkan lagi.. henpon burok je kan.. last last sekali deringan yang entah keberapa kali baru lah aku jawab dengan makian serta hamunan.. tetibe je kan .. hahaha..



''dik buchukk.. tido eh....''.. apa ke gila tanya soalan cengitu akak aku nie..

'' aku tengah peluk laki aku nie.. nape..? kacau daun betol lah...''..


di sebabkan jawapan aku tadi tu kena la tazkirah dua tiga minit jap....pastu cecepat aku potong..


''yang kau nie gelojoh tak mengedan tengahari dah telepon pehal.. nak beranak eh..?.''


'' memang dah terberanaak dah pon.. tapi bukan aku lah.. si Arroyo tu ha.. dapat babygurl ko tahu tak...''




sepantas kilat aku bangun.. terus buat lompat bintang lima ratus kali.. tekan tubi lima kali.. lompat getah guna selimut lapan kali.. cukup padat dan tepat exercise aku untuk pagi nie..


waahhh.. beranak jugak finally my twin eh. tapi kenapa aku yang paling lambat tahu neyh.. padahal pagi tadi aku blogwalking sampai pukul berapa tadi.. cehh..

honestly aku yang suruh dia tahan teberanak sebab konon nak sama bufday dengan aku.. last last tebabas sampai ke hari nie.. 16 SEPTEMBER 2011.. amboi nak jugak dedekat dengan aunty chomel die nie ye..
:D


so today after pergi open house rumah kawan, aku akan pecut selaju mungkin tapi pakai seatbelt ke puchong and then terus ke shah alam.. sebenarnye aku pon tak tahu die kat spital mana sebenarnye.. belanja topup 5 henget nak tepon mak boleh..? hehehe..


sudah.. aku nak pegi iron baju semangat sikit.. pakai baju kurung you all tahu tak nak pegi open ouse nie.. hehehe.. ayu gitu kan.. tapi bebalik pakai baju yang sama je lah..:D


okay bui semua.. nanti i upload gambar baby bebanyak eh kalau boleh snap la nanti... peace..



-TAMMAT-


Thursday, September 15

The Vampires Diaries Season 3


The Vampire Diaries return for season three.. omaaiiggaaddd.. time time nak final nie lah kau nak keluar season baru kan.. even aku nie seorang yang lemah lembut macam siput tak pe.. aku tetap teruja.. season two pon baru tengok sampai episode 12... pergh banyak lagi kot... tak pe biar lambat asalkan selamat..


so sape agak agak fan kepada movie nie boleh la share share dengan aku kalau dah ada simpan file cerita nie untuk season two dalam lappy.. boleh usha sesama kan.. ponat eden menunggu beruk aku nie if nak nonton online tahu tak.. anddd... for those yang tak pernah tengok lagi sila sila lah google tuk tengok teaser or sebagainya dulu.. yang penting 18xs tu skip lah cecepat.. hahaha...

CD die pon dah puas aku pergi usha kat kedai CD.. tapi tu lah orang cakap malu bertanya sesat jalan.. tapi menatang nie pon kadang kadang menyesatkan aku jugak.. hahaha..



so letx get through all episode from this movie..


SEASON 1

Episode 1. Pilot
Episode 2. The Night Of the Comet
Episode 3. Friday Night Bites
Episode 4. Family Ties
Episode 5. You're Undead To Me
Episode 6. Lost Girl
Episode 7. Haunted
Episode 8. 162 Candles
Episode 9. History Repeating
Episode 10. The Turning Point
Episode 11. Bloodlines
Episode 12. Unpleasantville
Episode 13. Children of The Damned
Episode 14. Fool Me Once
Episode 15. A Few Good Men
Episode 16. There Goes The Neighborhood
Episode 17. Let The Right One In
Episode 18. Under Control
Episode 19. Mystic Falls
20. Blood Brothers
21. Isobel
22. Founder's Day Season Finale


    • SEASON 2

Episode 1. The Return ( Season Premiere )
Episode 2. Brave New World
Episode 3. Bad Moon Rising
Episode 4. Memory Line
Episode 5. Kill or Be Killed
Episode 6. Plan B
Episode 7. Masquerade
Episode 8. Rose
Episode 9. Katerina
Episode 10. The Sacrifice
Episode 11. By The Light of The Moon.
Episode 12. The Descent
Episode 13. Daddy Issues
Episode 14. Crying Wolf
Episode 15. The Dinner Party
Episode 16. The House Guest
Episode 17. Know The Enemy
Episode 18. The Last Dance
Episode 19. Klaus
Episode 20. The Last Day
Episode 21. The Sun Also Rise
Episode 22. As I Lay Dying.


-TAMMAT-



Wednesday, September 14

entry raya tak lapuk dek hujan tak lekang dek panas..

norapikah memang serabai.. nak update blog pon kena ada mood.. dan harinie di umumkan norapikah memang banyak mood untuk update beribu ribu entry dalam masa satu hari.. so silalah terima dengan hati yang terbuka ye followers ku tersayang...;D


rasanya still sempat lagi.. 

SELAMAT HARI RAYA GENG BLOGGER KU SEMUA..!

norapikah beraya kat kampung tercinta KAMPUNG RELONG, KUALA LIPIS PAHANG DARUL SITI NURHALIZA.. kejadahnye lah.. dah jangan ambik hati.. dah nama beraya kompem lah seronok kan.. so keseronokan tu hanyalah dapat dikongsikan dengan gambar sahaja kerana kata kata yang keluar dari mulut aku melalui jari jemari nie kebanyakannya adalah dusta belaka.. hahaha


mari tengok gambar sudah lah...:D



RAYA PERTAMA : siangnya just duduk kat rumah tak dapat nak keluar sebab macam biasa lah orang datang beraya kan.. nanti kang terlepas pulak duit raya. malamnya baru lah dapat peluang aku keluar pergi beraya rumah kengkawan.. sampai pukul 12.30 malam pon tak tahu nak balik balik lagi.. merdeka sekali lah tu kiranya..=)


siang hari raya pertama..

mata aku lah tu sebelah tu.. 



malam hari raya pertama



RAYA KEDUA : hari nie dah setup baik punya nak pergi serbu rumah member member zaman sekolah rendah.. nama je duduk sekampung tapi nak jumpa punyalah susah.. so bermula dari rumah aku sampailah sorang sorang pergi kutip.. dari pagi sampai kepetang beraya.. syok nye tak payah nak cakap lah.. mengusik tak ubah dari jaman sekolah dedolu.. hahaha.. then malamnye pulak kami berkarok bersama sama sampai lah pukul 11.00 malam.. sangat menyimpang ye muda mudi sekarang..raya pon nak berkarok..-.-''



masih rajin nak college kan pic


menu : lemang,rendang, bihun sup, soto, begedil siap tapau..


menu : mee sup pedas melantak ayam punya banyak..


muka keletihan dari cik norapikah

menu : bihun sup, mee kari.. tetap melantak even dah bape kali jumpa menu yang sama


menu : mee rojak sedap tambah dua kali muka tak malu..


menu : kuih raya sahaja.. tapi nak perabeh kami kerjakan..;D


 rumah terakhir dah tak larat nak makan.. maka habis lah hari raya kedua kat gambar nie.. karok tak dek gambar semua sibuk sumbangkan suara..:D



RAYA KETIGA : kononya harinie aku just menerima tetamu yang tak sempat datang lagi kerumah aku.. tapi last last open house bertukar kepada reunion geng akak aku.. ceh.. so aku membuka langkah follow kengkawan aku yang lain ke rumah seterusnya yang belom di terjah..


menu : mee goreng panas baru angkat dari dapur..

nie kawan aku yang selalu nak bertanding siapa lebih tinggi dari jaman sekolah dulu lagi.. malangnya sekarang dia dah menang..-.-'






rumah nie jux ada sorang je penghuni tyme kitorang pegi.. so automatik jadi tempat lepak,solat and istirehat dulu sebelom gerak ke rumah yang lain.. siap main mercun lagi yang tak tahanye.. menu tak dek sebab anak teruna je yang hidagkan makanan.. nasib lah..-.-'



 jux ignore rupa burok budak atas nie..time nie kat rumah along..-.-''



cara duduk yang sopan untuk cover perut belon+bertali pinggang mahal..=)




masing masing dah tersadai keletihan..





rumah terakhir tuk raya aidilfitri 2011.. gambar terakhir membawa seribu erti ye.. hehe..:D


so tenxs kengkawan sebab dah tak malu malu kucing bila jumpa reramai.. semua dah dewasa.. dah bertambah sporting.. lawa lawa segak segak dah belake.. sampai ada dah yang tak cam sesame sendiri.. dasyat giloss.. dekat 8 tahun jugak lah da tak jumpa rasanya.. so aku abadikan dalam blog nie so nanti hari tua korang search lah ye tajuk entri nie insyAllah ada lagi kenangan kita kat zaman siber nie..


tapi yang sedihnya gambar kat rumah aku tak ada.. dan beberapa rumah lagi yang tak sempat nak snap..hope dapat jumpa and berkumpul lagi ngan korang untuk next aidilfitri.. luv u all..=)..



-TAMMAT-

semuanya kerana 13 September...

apakah..? mengapakah..? bagaimana..? hidup lagi rupanya norapikah nie ek.. ingatkan dah menghilang.. hahaha.. hye guys.. dah lama tak berjumpa.. i kan PM.. perempuan mengandungi lemak maybe yang sememangnya bizi tatkala hujung tahun mendatang..


namun tidak langsung dilupakan kepada blog yang senantiasa semak dengan ucapan makian mahupun kata alu aluan kepada pengunjung dan seisi makhluk di dunia ini sekalian.. tetiba ayat pon dah nak skematik dramatic pehal kau norapikah.. nie semua 13 Sept punya pasal.. grrr..!


okay entry nie sangat mendalam serta makan hati.. kalau ada hingus menitis tanpa disedari lalu jatuh ke keyboard korang jangan marah ye.. 


beberapa hari yang lepas norapikah dah 20 tahun... diulangi 20 tahun... datx mean aku dah bukan dara lagi..! giloss.. maksudnya aku dah bukan kanak kanak berusia belasan tahun lagi dah.. aku dah berada di peringkat dewasa.. so aku kena berfikiran lebih matang.. berperangai lebih elok.. berfikiran lebih terbuka dan sempit mengikut kesesuaian cuaca.. solat mesti dijaga.. kahwin mesti cepat dan dapat anak deras deras.. last sekali sememangnya unacceptable..-.-'


yup betol norapikah dilahirkan pada tanggal 13 September 1991.. maka dengan tiupan angin kencang bidadari dengan senafas helaan aku pon lahirlah ke dunia fana nie.. melihat dunie.. mengenal mana satu anjing dan kucing.. jahat dan buruk.. langit dan bumi.. seks dan nafsu.. kubur dan tab mandi.. carut dan puji.. lulus dan fail.. laki dan perempuan.. lemang dan nasi himpit.. tidur dan bangun serta blog dan pesbuk..


Syukur Ya Allah.. 20 tahun aku menumpang kat dunia Mu ini.. even nama menumpang kekadang aku leka, alpa, sengaja, melupakan kat mana aku berdiri.. insan lemah yang lagi longlai lagi kejam, taksubkan duniawi, akhirat ibarat lenyap tak pernah wujud.. itulah dia insan ini.. maksiat ibarat makan nasi.. aurat ibarat mandi pagi.. solat kadang ada kadang pergi.. hina betol diri nie.. 


13 September 2011.. moga aku dapat yang aku ingini.. bukan je hadiah yang gabak gabak.. mahal mahal.. tapi sebentuk anugerah dari Allah S.W.T... mungkin bukan hari ini.. tapi aku akan tetap menanti..


so muhasabah diri dah habes.. kejap lagi aku nak post pasal raya dan bufday party yang syok sendiri.. tak pe lah.. hari nie nak jadi gila entry.. jangan marah dan jumpa lagi.. terima kasih sudi senyum kat sini..

bui..;D



exposure terlebih jap...



-TAMMAT-