Teardrops slowly fall from my eyes as i sit alone tonight, and then i question how come life keeps passing me right on by.. i just wonder.. why i can't escape.? is this my fate.? to always be unhappy..
when i cry at night.. the only thing i can think to myself is.. how can i seem sooo perfectly fine in the morning.. why do i smile like nothing is wrong... and how does not one single person notice that i'm not okay.. even my mom.. then im trying to answered myself that im not the childish person anymore.. i'm trying to be the strong better girl now.. yes i am.!
The fact that coming out right now is life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.. at that time im feel so alone and nothing make sense.. the sad thing is im facing everything myself with nothing but tears and a fake smile..
I don't know if i'm getting better or just used to the pain.. but the thing that im trying to do right now is i didn't want to admit it.. because it easier to lie.. i'll hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of keep cry.. no matter what.. no matter who.. no matter what i do.. im not stop to say that..
I'LL KEEP TRYING AS LONG AS I'M STILL HAVE TIME.!
semakbagai : english merapu.. biaq p lantaq la.. -.-v